February 2012
9 posts
“Its all spilling out. The universe with its great plan. There’s left overs...”
persist.
Start the engine. Stop sabotaging yourself. Freeze frame, dialate - remember how to stir.
Uncomplicate this - untwist the need to enlist negativity. Rebirth this and remember, you have the right to leave. Count your pennies, count your blessings - in your next life you can start again. Just keep on keeping on, ride out this creative sting.
Don’t let the desert smoke back in beautiful,...
“If you see me getting smaller, I’m leaving, don’t be grieving, just...”
– Waylon Jennins Lyrics
enlist.
Twist and live through this. Move mountains on the backs of petticoats and strip the fear from your bones.
Freedom.
Stay alive and stay true. Mount beasts of great disposition and don’t get lost in the shallow side of the human soul. Women are such wicked feats if allowed to simply run without constraint. And what divides us is our misery, treachery and gut wrenching honesty - the ability...
January 2012
10 posts
“In 1850 a human slave cost roughly $40,000 in today’s dollars - now a...”
the natasha's.
I don’t believe much in organized religion, but I do believe in faith. And so whatever God may be above you tonight, may they hear my voice in this place.
To all the woman forgotten somewhere between hell’s fury and heaven’s gate, may God hear your prayers tonight. May you have strength. May a man’s weight on your back be little less today. May you be warm and fed and...
“How can I sit and watch from a far, don’t wait for me I may not come back...”
– P Dudar - The Reason
( I miss you hun - remember that )
wild in the seat.
My head is on fire - my heart is pushing through.
This want, this wait…..for something far beyond this truth.
I’m sinking a little here - waiting on time’s current to remember where it left me. Pick me up, push me forward - connect all the years past and present to this.
My swollen breasts remind me that they’re impatient - gypsy promises have shelf lives too. I...
“My New Years Resolution 2012:
To live more without thinking about the...”
I've come to realize 2012.
1. I’ve come to realize that my butt:
Still seems to interest men.
2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk:
Its like opening the gate to a corral of wild mustangs, I’m never sure what might spill out.
3. I’ve come to realize that if I love someone:
Some part of both our lives will forever change.
4. I’ve come to realize that I need:
To open some new doors.
5. I’ve come to realize...
December 2011
11 posts
ruzzdotorg:
i was feeling pretty good till i answered a knock at the door. the landlord complaining about back rent. i told him it’s a christmas miracle he got front rent.
still.
“Oh Natasha. Why. For the love of god.”
the conditions of this.
I’m thinking about our baby. And by the time you answer me I’ll be over it.
I’m glad things went the way they did - there was a better life out there for all of us. I think for some people its just supposed to be complicated….without the crossfire there’d be no lessons learnt. Maybe the stubborn ones don’t understand truths when they’re placed simply at...
“The night crawls over my delicate arms….the smell of a beautiful Douglas...”
the unraveling.
There’s a dull roar tugging at my heart , and my bones are soar from where the joints are worn. I sink a bit beneith the weight of it, and gently exhale settling the roots of this. I’m not letting you control this - it will not bleed over me because the ghost of my memories reminded me how to be free…. Its time to go.
As I exhale the last bit of you sneaks out and everything...
November 2011
28 posts
“I’m not going to lie - its a mess.”
“And the only solution was to stand and fight,
And my body was loosened,
I was...”
– Florence and the Machine
spacebound.
To all the lovers in distant places - I feel you.
For all the lovers forced to choose between a sunset and sunrise - I kneel to you.
To all the lovers swimming in the depths of abandonment - I see you.
For all the lovers pulling their heads through resurrection - I hear you.
Ravaging your thoughts from some demon filled depth - I’m near you.
For all the lovers choosing to break cycles...
“You need not find a cure for all the things that make you weak.”
– Dallas Green
blistering destiny.
Drink until your heart spills out and you redefine decent mistakes. Lose something, gain something - remember how to hesitate.
Eliminate the fearless grounds and place needles beneath densely woven petticoats. Run broken fingers across unholy towns and frame those blistering sounds……bleed here - sew a seed here and pinpoint the year, when everything came spilling back out - sleepless...
“And the wild mustang purred….”
brokenstar.
I like my men hard working - a callused hand and broken nose. Hard as hell with a softened soul - a hide leathered and progressively worn.
There’s something about such honesty - a silence with no need for words. A heavy heart and heathen hoof, anchoring mountains amidst the storm.
Swarm.
This hollow landslide fills and I see dawn wash up the shore - I understand now this revolving door.
...
““But we never explain
why we treasure our secrets,
how we’re in...”
– Anisa Nin 2011
“Trying to fix an old relationship is like trying to fix a broken mirror -...”
arabian horses.
So my heart gave out a bit - ripped its side and ran away….and even though its prince ran off, the lining never strayed.
I asked a door to open, clean out a closet of broken glass - cause for some reason I keep it all these years air tight and locked away…..like a desert storm the sun rose and fell - swallowed amidst a lightless day. I choked back the hot Sahara sand and felt through...
