December 2009
19 posts
I've come to realize 2010.
1. I’ve come to realize that my butt: is bigger than my hips. 2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk: what I say is less important than how I say it. 3. I’ve come to realize that if I love someone: I will give them everything - but both of their hands will be full. 4. I’ve come to realize that I need: to change the rules and the exceptions to those rules every now and then. 5. I’ve...
“distance and time.”
Time.
I understand that the road is hard.
I understand that the road is a long and peril filled beast…..but that doesn’t mean its unforgiving. And trust me baby, it does forget.
There are many things that a wise man can say, so many open ended alternatives and empty comforts - all can only be filled by you. Your time, your place, your name on the page…..the only thing that can be...
it takes some time to really appreciate violence. the softer, kinder women ( or emasculated she-men, et al ) will buy that ugly lie about women being somehow more morally or emotionally evolved and turn their noses up at a bloody fist. or bombed village, or the senseless deaths of thousands. this does not change the equation; life has costs. and those costs are usually expressed in terms of power,...
“i.am.trying.so.hard.to.make.all.these.things.co-exist.healthy.and.clean.without.c...”
“you need not find a cure for everything that makes you weak.”
stifling left of center.
Silent and questioning the last 48 hours, I’m swimming in here. And I see the rope, the push - the break. And once again I see me.
The cats running back and forth, forcing my attention from this place. Dissatisfied with my lack of affection – bored to tears, imprisoned in this 500 square feet – of me.
I know I break things, push hard with steel hands. Sourcing the stitches and pushing the...
“Another failed relationship, another broken glass. up heave the upheavals and...”
“mutuality: a reciprocal relation between interdependent entities.”
interdependance.
The black and whites of the inside out really only have two things to say. You do or you don’t, you can or you can’t, there’s not much room for greyscale - hesitate.
I’m twisting in here, lighting wildfires where the wolves have been – all in hopes of clearing this out – doubt – how I don’t want you to find this all out.
The child in me kicks up a fuss in these moments, the man a poker bluff....
“We spend most our lives cutting down our ambitions because the world has told us...”
– Eleni Gabre
want.
The one thing exceedingly dismal but honestly true about relationships, is that we don’t “need” each other. We “want” each other.
We just seem to tell ourselves that we can’t survive without each other because the with drawl of love is beyond intoxicating. But the facts are simple:
You will still get up everyday and your heart will still beat.
You will...