21st
the conditions of this.
I’m thinking about our baby. And by the time you answer me I’ll be over it.
I’m glad things went the way they did - there was a better life out there for all of us. I think for some people its just supposed to be complicated….without the crossfire there’d be no lessons learnt. Maybe the stubborn ones don’t understand truths when they’re placed simply at their feet.
I don’t miss it under the ugly facts of our conditions - the abuse - the poisonous love that we were. I realize now it was just a dream. An idea, a revolution - the evolution of me. Still, your youth impales you - and I have no interest in placing bets on that scene.
You came back to test the water. If I could resist the flame than I can move forward - thank you for that Ruzz - but if not you would ruin me. A good friend of mine said to me “those who can’t handle their demons get eaten by them” - cage them, whatever …….its all the same…..but I don’t feel eaten, so I guess this means it will all turn ok.
Thank God for blissful memories and all the psychological complexes we possess that keep us from the truth. Keep us lying to ourselves until we finally see the choice.
2012 is going to be a big year my friend. I can’t wait to get out of here.
- Temna Fialka 2011
